“…being unwanted and unloved, I don’t think there is medicine for healing…”Mother Teresa.
There are certain events in my life that burrow deeply into my heart and even into my soul.
Teenagers nowadays, are very different compared to those in 70’s and 80’s. Malling, discos are just two among the hundred things, teenagers want to spend for the rest of their lives. They enjoy the whole day laughing, screaming…But after all they are not satisfied to what they did, so they find another day and do something more. They usually go with their barkadas or peers.
But I find myself very different to the majority. I just stay in our house and enjoy the whole day all by myself. I prefer to be alone that’s why they call me---loner.
Being alone is not that easy, it’s the most hurting feelings I ever felt. I do have little friends…
Sometimes I have a conflict with my parents, and they screamed me offending words…
That time it feels like the whole world fall to me. And it really hurts me, because it feels like I’m unloved by the people around me. I don’t do anything wrong, I try to be a good son to them but after all they consider me as the worst child they ever had.
I just prayed about it, I asked God to give me more strength for me to stand up. I also asked Him to let my parents understand me.
It’s the darkest day of my life, away from my parents and nobody’s there to comfort me. That day my whole life was surrounded by uncounted tears and sorrow. I just lay in my bed in my locked room, alone, crying and praying. I don’t take my meal nor drink a glass of water, I start killing myself. When the afternoon comes I start feeling very dizzy and of course very lonely.
I heard slow knocks in my door, I presume it’s our maid trying to hand me my dinner. But when the door starts to be unlocked I saw both my mom and dad. My mom immediately hugged me, my dad starts explaining me a lot of stuff why they scold me like that. They both apologize to me and say sorry. And after that, it eventually heals my rusting heart. God answered my prayers, He’s always there for me. I thank God so much…
Now I know that there is a medicine for being unloved and that is to be loved! Love is the best medicine ever… I hope love will always be in the heart of all people.
