Thursday, November 18, 2010

He's just a Brother (Message from my sister)


Everyone had already ask me about my family, my siblings. You know things like how we bond, how do we treat each other, its the family relationship that intrigues the people around me. My classmates, some of my friends and even my dorm mates did asked me about my family. It also gave me pressure, because its hard for me to realize what made them interested with my family background, do I look so rich or so poor, or something? Well just like the others, I consider my family, though big, simple and happy. We are eight siblings in the family, my mom and dad are both professionals, some of my sibling has their own children already and I'm the youngest one. Though sometimes its hard to be in a big family I'm still thankful to God for giving me such a wonderful family. Conflicts are not new to us, but I always think that it's just a part of our relationship and those are just challenges, tests that we ought to overcome. After all conflicts made our bond even stronger.
I have something to tell, this is funny and a little bit emotional, this is a story about my brother. To start the story let me begin with a very brief data of him, let me describe him. Just call him Mark, you can find his name everywhere. He even complain about that sometimes, that his name is probably one of the most common name in the world. It pissed him off every time someone yield the name Mark and it made him turn around and see who's calling, and found out that the person is not referring to him. I sometimes laugh whenever my brother tell me his experiences that really pissed him off. He's a student just like most of us, he also read books, always bring bag, go to school of course, but what is unusual about him is that he love school. Unlike most of the students he's always excited to go to school, but he's not that industrious to study almost every night his. He just love school because I don't know, I should ask him that. But anyways, he's a psychology student also and he sometimes belong to the gang of weirdos. He likes music so much that he always sleep with earphones, which is for me could harm his ears. Another funny thing about my brother is he eat too much, he can even eat ten or more cups of rice. That's gluttony! He's young, nineteen years old, and this March he'll finally receive his diploma, he'll finally graduate. One time he mentioned that it's going to be very sad that he'll leave college, he said he'll miss all his classmates and friends. You know my brother is very emotional sometimes, it bothers me whenever he is so silent, seems he got a deep problem. But I find my brother so cool that I consider him as one of the best dude in the world.
There's one time when my brother became an issue in our family, he was accused of taking drugs by my parents and a lot more. He comes home very late and some time sleep to other houses for two to three days. It bothers me a lot because we don't know where he stays and spends the night, most especially when I don't receive any text message from him. He's stubborn you know, he doesn't tell anything about his businesses. My older sister was pissed off, and one time when my brother got home from a three days vacation without my sisters permission he received the scold he never forgets. He cried, good for him, if only he knew how worried I am. But no, I'm just kidding, I was also very affected when my bro cried that I did also throw painful words to my sister to defend him. But to make it short, the problem now is solved, we found out that he always went to his old dormitory to hang-out with his good friends. He already explained to mom and dad that he's doing good in his life. He also proved it by making himself part of the deans lists in their school.
Well for me, no matter how hard headed my brother is, I just understand him for whoever he is. He may went to far away places without me knowing and he may spend his money unwisely, it would be okay for me, it's just a part of being a teenager and it reminds me of his imperfection. He may commit a mistake but he will learn from it. I mean who I am to judge him and mind his life, dictate what's good or bad, and control him. After all he's just a brother, he has his own life, and my role is to help whenever he needs me, support and understand. And I promise that I will always be there for him. And now he's still doing what he used to, coming home late and going to unknown businesses. Whatever he is doing I don't know, I still trust and always understand him. He's just a brother, you know...

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Fuck the Trust

Im staying away from my parents. And so I thought I would be independent, but i was wrong. Though there far away they still hold my neck, and I freaks me out!

Everything began with this...here's the story.

Me and my friends decided to go for an outing, we wanted to go for a beach somewhere south of Cebu. And so I have to ask for my sister's permission to allow me to go with my friends.(We're living in one apartment, she's the oldest and so I should ask her first). But unfortunately me and my sister is having a silent war. (I hate her,she never understands, feeble-minded I think, she really pissed me off). With that I decided to ask directly to my parents, I texted them that we'll be going somewhere for an outing, though I was sure they'll never allow me. They replied, and said they'll not allow me to go because the walk is useless and it would only cost a lot of money plus its not safe to travel (you know they're very authoritarian). And despite of that, i decided to continue, go with my friends, i know that was ones in a lifetime experience and I should not miss it.

And so I go on, I prepared all the necessary stuffs and the next day we go.

That was a three days and two nights outing. I had a great great fun, that was really one of the most unforgettable days of my life.

While we are on a party, a town fiesta was happening then, I received a text from my mom it was a message from my sister she forwarded it to me. And it said, that i was really a damn super liar, she said that I lied that I was not really having an educational tour but in fact I was on an outing.

That really sucks, I never said I was going for an educational tour. The real thing I said was I will be going for an outing and after that I'll go for our fieldwork study for our Anthropology class.

That text ruined my mood so much that I almost cried and throw my mobile phone in the ocean. Shit!

From then on,I REALLY HATE MY SISTER SO MUCH.

After the outing,when I got home, my sister scold me, she blurt out words I never deserved. I walked out and decided to stay on my friends dormitory. I really don't want to stay with that bitch anymore. I don't wanna see her, my blood rise every time I see her fucking face.

From that moment my parents never trust me again. When I go for an important walk they just said that I lied and I was not really on that walk, things like that. They always text me, where am I now, where I go and stuff. They are so doubtful, they never believe me. That was painful in my part, I'm not doing anything that could interfere my studies, I'm still responsible in school, I never forget my priorities. But for them, I'm just a stupid son they should curse! I'm not sure about that, but that's how I felt. It's too painful!

They never believe me and so I never said anything when I go for something. I think it's gonna be useless if I'll ask them and they won't believe.

I blame my siter. She was the one who broke the trust I have from my parents. I hate her so much. I always think that I will never treat her as my sister anymore. She almost destroyed my life.

If she'll read this I wanna say to her:

You are suppose to understand me but what you did to me is something that I would never forget. That was the greatest mistake to me. I know your concern but you never understand the impact that has to me. You never act like an adult, you're selfish!

No one's gonna believe me from now on, there will always be a doubt. I can never change that, you broke the trust ones and it will be very complicated to bring that back.

Fuck the trust!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

i composed song lyrics.

After months of not blogging,here i am again.last vacati0n was kinda boring but albeit fun.i did cool stuffs like composing song lyrics.

So,heres my own lyrics...

"Black string"

i was once a dreamer
but suddenly everthng is gone
i been there to light
but now,all i can see is dark

sorow is just part of lyf
lyk the sharpest knife
that c0uld hurt you & force u to hug yourself so tight

refrain:
i ben n a dark r0m
n0 one to talk to
n0body listens as i cream and say,helo

chorus:
black strings that are tied n my po0r hands
we'l s0mebody take ds off
but its to0 late for me
coz n0bodys there to help me and heal my wounded heart

oh oh oh oh
(repeat refrain & chorus 2x)

i was once a dreamer and everythng is g0ne.

Monday, March 1, 2010

how to obtain excellence?

As a student or probably a professional you been asking yourself quite sometimes how could you obtain the so called excellence. Well, what we are doing in school or the reason why i always go to school is basically to learn more about life and perhaps to achieve excellence. But obtaining this is not an easy process you have to climb up and fall before getting unto the top or reach it.

It's already my ritual to go to a cafeteria to take my breakfast, lunch and dinner. And lately, I saw my long time best friend there, i didn't notice anything on her like her changes but what i noticed was her t shirt. At the back of her brown shirt i guess, it was printed there,

"The four ways to obtain excellence".

1. Care more than anyone think is wise.
2. Risk more than anyone think is safe.
3. Expect more than anyone think is possible.
4. And dream more than anyone think is practical.

So there, it helped me a lot and i found it so great, i learned. Oh yeah! My education could help me achieve excellence, but my action or how i view the world is probably a big contributor to reach it.

As easy as CRED, care, risk, expect and dream...you can now achieve EXCELLENCE!
It isn't easy but you have to apply it...

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Crap! I met the most Arrogant Man in this World.




"...an arrogant man talks more and listens less." I came up with this phrase when I actually meet the most arrogant man ever.

Majority in our boarding house are college students. I am actually one of those people. We're all bond with studies and some other stuffs. But of course, sometimes we also have to shift into something that isn't boring. So, most of the time we talk and talk and talk. Talking is basically our tool for bonding, we tackled a lot of things such as love and relationship, school, experiences---to sum up everything we're actually talking about our lives. With those talks we actually got to know more each other. Our weirdest wish and dreams, most fearful stuffs, favorites, etc.

Here comes a man who eventually intrudes our daily talking session one night.
Our living room serves as our venue for funny and intellectual talks, but when that man came there was a metamorphosis. What happened wasn't a communication anymore, it wasn't a conversation between two person or more. That man eventually became a speaker, seems like a politician in front of five folks. He stressed everything he says and he disagrees to all the things we said. So it all turned out that he's the only one talking and not even giving us a chance to say something. I got very irritated and annoyed that night, and so I walked out. I don't wanna hear somebody talking faulty information's and damn opinions.

The next night, everything got worst. That fuckin' man gab again. Whew! Holy Shit! If a fairy god mother would appear and ask me for one wish, oh boy, I would really wish that that man would loss his mouth or better yet turn his mouth into a asshole.

Fairy god mother where are you???I need you..

By the way, the mother- fucker's name is ______. Sorry, I can't spell it out. My blood rises every time I hear and see his name, most especially his butt- like face. Actually we made a number of alias for him. one is 'monkey' (monkeys are noisy, right?), the other one is 'tikbalang' ( a Filipino term for a mythical beast that's half man and half horse), he really looks like those disgusting creatures.

He's a lover of my friend. Dude, I really wonder why she loves that shit. She's dumb, I think she got no taste...

Actually the mother- fucker graduated already and passed the licensure exam (he's damn lucky that time... He's a licensed engineer but he actually acts like an insane man roaming on a crowded street. He's too damn older than us and he is supposed to act like a true professional, right?

Bloody hell, when he starts to talk my whole day is ruined! I can take it anymore, I want his mouth zip!

Once you meet the most arrogan man in this world , you'll gonna die!Stay away from hem huh...

Tuesday, June 2, 2009






lets keep mother earth green. Think twice!When our planet is contaminated, so are you!What you do counts...lets move now, before its too late...

*(this photos was taken at the Domorog, Cataingan,Masbate)

Sunday, March 22, 2009

The paradox of Freedom




The Paradox of Freedom


A beautiful butterfly had just loose from its cocoon. It felt good to be out after long days and nights of silence and darkness. It stretched out its wings and fluttered…up

Up and went over the garden of the flowers. The butterfly was free and it wanted to share the secret it had found.

As it hovered over the flowers, it spotted a caterpillar crawling in the ground. Gently alighting beside the crawling creature, it smiled and greeted…


BUTTERFLY: Good morning! Beautiful day, isn’t it? Just got out of my cocoon. I never
knew the garden was so beautiful until today.

CATERPILLAR: You must be new here.

BUTTERFLY: Not really. I’ve been around quite some time. But it’s my first time to fly
over the garden… And you, what are you doing down here?

CATERPILLAR: Can’t you see yourself?

BUTTERFLY: I can see… you’re munching leaves…

CATERPILLAR: So why’d you ask?

BUTTERFLY: Don’t you think it’s the time you go and bury yourself inside your
cocoon?

CATERPILLAR: Don’t be silly. Why should I?

BUTTERFLY: You’re a caterpillar… and soon you’ll be a butterfly…

CATERPILLAR: Ah…I’m just a worm. Look here, wise guy…Life is short, so you’ve
got to make it…the most of it…The world is so beautiful, and there’s so much to see and enjoy… I wouldn’t want to turn my eyes away from it a single moment…

BUTTERFLY: But you can enjoy the world mush more when you’re free and flying over
it. Down here, you get bogged down to a few delights… You don’t see e verything from crawling on the ground…

CATERPILLAR: Big deal! I’m satisfied with the way I am.

BUTTERFLY: You’re satisfied with being a worm all your life? But you’ll never be
happy… You’re meant to be free and fly! Don’t you want to be a butterfly?

CATERPILLAR: On second thought, I think I would, but…

BUTTERFLY: Then go and bury yourself in your cocoon before it’s too late.

CATERPILLAR: But I’m afraid…

BUTTERFLY: Scared of what?

CATERPILLAR: …the dark… of missing the world… of losing my freedom. The
freedom that you’ll enjoy as a butterfly will be nothing with the passing joys you’ll be missing for a while.

BUTTERFLY: Everyone has to die a while if one wants to live and become what one
was meant to be.

CATERPILLAR: Ah… it’s too much trouble… I’ll settle for the way things are at the
moment. If you’d excuse me… there’s too much of the garden I have not seen yet…

The caterpillar left the butterfly speechless and very much disappointed, and went on its
way. It spent the rest of its days crawling on its belly and munching leaves. It grew old and died –A WORM.

The butterfly flew away but more determined than ever to share with all caterpillars the secret of freedom he had discovered.

If a butterfly happens to alight upon you don’t shoo it away…

You must just be missing THE SECRET OF FREEDOM.